Fighting hard

Well I thought things were on the up..
My local hospital has two oncologists. One has left recently and they have not yet employed someone. So there is one Dr doing the job of two. So I got a letter yesterday saying all appointments in clinic have been cancelled. They are not doing any follow up appointments at the moment. The priority will be women who are under going treatment. Well this totally threw me. I now do not know when I will be getting the results from my scan. This is agonising..its bad enough waiting but when you now don't have an appointment it feels even worse. I have spoken to various people including the consultants secretary but have had no luck. I have been told that when the results appear on the system an appointment MAY be made for me but this depends on the results and if a relevant qualified member of staff is available to speak to me. The only thing I can do is ring the hospital every single day until the results appear. This waiting and fighting is both emotionally and physically draining, it wears me down till I feel exhausted. Its so hard to keep fighting all the time.

TOBY

I am enjoying being an auntie again. My nephew Toby is wonderful and I am getting lots of cuddles. Its lovely to have a baby in the family again. It was hard for me to begin with as cancer has taken away my chance to have any more children which was difficult to deal with.I've now gone in to menopause which I am finding hard to cope with as we would have loved another child. I admit that I wasn't too nice to my sister when she announced her pregnancy as I felt upset and to be truthful very jealous but now Toby is here I love him to bits.I've now decided that I am going to be the best auntie in the world!. (Think Amber agrees already!!)

Concert/Surprise Party

On Saturday We did another concert singing our 1940's programme. It went very well. I had to get a new dress as I accidently bleached my other one. The audience were really good and joined in with the singing. Here is a picture of all of us
The day of the concert was also Gordons birthday. My family came over for breakfast which was lovely..definately a tradition to keep up!
After the concert..although he didn't know I had arranged a surprise birthday party for Gordon. It was so hard keeping it a secret -I had to arrange all the food and make sure people were invited. Gordon just thought we were going for after concert drinks. His face was a picture as we walked into Caroline and Tims house and everyone shouted 'Happy Birthday'. He was really touched as noone had every done that for him before.It was a lovely surprise and a wonderful end to a great day. Thanks to Tim and Caroline for helping me organise the party and to Gordon, My lovely hubby -I love you so much

Scan

Last Friday I had my latest CT Scan. Usual nightmare. Last time I went for a scan i got told off for not mentioning that I had bad veins. So this time I made sure I did. I was thanked for mentioning the subject by the nurse. Three quarters of an hour and no hot water arrived. Got called in for the injection and then got told off about veins as usual. Well I got really cross and told the supervisor that i HAD mentioned about my veins WHEN i arrived but nothing was done. I hate CT scans they are so horrible. I get the results in a week and a half so watch this space!